Mulling it over.

I have some random thoughts tonight...

It has been said that marriage goes through stages. In looking back over the last 40 plus years I will have to agree. Although I will have to say at this point in life I really never expected it to be as it is today. I have 4 wonderful children. I had great expectations. But the Lord and the children had their own ideas! I just assumed my children and my relationship with them would be the same as it was with my parents, and why not? We are in the same family! But alas, there cometh another who entered the picture and his DNA had equal share in having his say! So today, my children are more like the "other side's" family and I find myself sort of (mind you) on the outside! That doesn't mean this is right and that is wrong. It's just different! But they did makes some choices I didn't expect. One child has my personality, another has some of my characteristics, for good or ill. Yet some are so different than me! What an illumination and enlightenment! Redundant, I know!

So I have a choice: cry over my "losses" or accept what I do have and the love I know they have for me? They just chose not to necessarily do "it" the way I would have. And I'm always right,  you know!

I just finished watching the third season of Downton Abbey with a friend. The Dowager, Lady Grantham has some wonderful lines. One of them is "Families are not what they appear to be on the outside."

Well said, my Lady, well said!


This is enough "thoughts" for now. I'll leave the rest for later. Enjoy.

THAT PERSONAL ANNUAL DATE

Well, I had a birthday this week. You hate to see them come around and see those numbers ticking higher and higher. But the alternative is even worse. So I guess I need to accept I'm moving into the Old Age category - or at least the Senior Citizen stage.

My husband when he turned 55 started getting mail from AARP. But he wouldn't have anything to do with it. I thought it would be good to have a membership as there are benefits, even if I don't like some of their political views. He turned 65 last fall, so without question he signed up and signed me up, too. He didn't even ask. How does he know that I may have changed my mind and didn't want to be a member??! But, I hadn't actually, so I just smiled to myself and put away the card in my wallet.

When I got home from work the other day, I realized that I had left my driver's license laying on my desk. I keep it in a leather case with the debit cards I use most frequently. Consequently I had driven to and from work that day without my drivers license in my purse. My response to myself was: "You know you're getting old when..."  but it's a good thing this hadn't been the case a couple of weeks earlier.

I was driving home from work and noticed how bright red the driver's lights were in front of me. I hadn't seen any that bright. I glanced to my left and immediately back and realized the driver in front of me was stopping!!! -Hence the 'bright' red lights. I hit the brake but not soon enough to keep from making contact with the other car and giving them a push forward. Fortunately no one was hurt, not even the cars, only my pride!  That was my first thought of creating a list "You know you're getting old when..." One friend mentioned on Facebook (where I had posted the event) - it wasn't cause I was old, just tired!!

I think I'll go with that. I'm not OLD; maybe old-ER and tired!